I’m not sure about everyone else out there, but I have certain expectations of myself. I expect that no matter what, with training there should be progress. If I run often I should be able to run faster and farther, right? And when that doesn’t happen, I/we get down on ourselves and turn to the comfort items in our lives that might console us. Yesterday, I came to terms with the fact that it is not always how it is, nor how it should be.
During a not so brief 6 mile run, the anxiety crept in and I started getting down on myself. My pace was way off. I had taken a wrong turn. The place I wanted to get to was now out of reach for the distance I wanted to travel.
You see, right down the street from where I live is where my Mom and Dad were married many moons ago; Scargo Tower. It holds a special place in my heart, and I always mean to run over there, but never do. Alas, again, I missed my chance. You see, I was so focused on adding in some mileage, I took a wrong turn in a neighborhood I am unfamiliar with. It put me way off course.
Because I had to run with more intention on my route then on my actual run, the pace suffered. Not that I’m fast, but on a normal run I know the route and can concentrate less on where I am going or how I am getting there; it’s completely prearranged. I’d love to live more “seat of my pants” but I need structure. I’m still new to this whole running thing anyway.
I’m an obsessive kind of guy, so having goals to work toward keeps me going. Whether it’s training for a 5k, 10k, OCR or an ultra; the expectation to excel is always there. When I’ve tasted even the most minor amount of success, it seems to derail everything. For instance, A couple weeks before my 50k I was feeling great and pushed a bit harder. It ended up causing me some knee pain and killed my training for a few days. At the 50k, that knee pain came back.
I’m wondering if maybe a running coach might help. I’m never going to take 1st place at a race, but to have someone help me use this body more efficiently would be of great value.
Do you have a running coach or trainer? What do you think of using one?